14th April 2017 - one year on
It has been one year. It is kind of hard to believe I got here to be honest. Probably because I don't remember any of it, I often still don't believe it happened to me. It is currently a few days before my anniversary and I find myself excited for it, thankful I got to keep living and grateful for the people I have met over the last twelve months, new friends I have made and also grateful that I have inspired people to make a change in their own life. I'm pretty proud of that.
I'm glad I went back to work. I understand and agree with taking my time with that. I had significant panic attacks when I went back to school to pack my 2016 room up and needed to work through that before I started back. I have a fabulous team this year. We work together well and get along great, and my grade is fabulous. I have Grade 4 and they are enthusiastic, motivated and get along well.
I have undertaken genetic testing at Royal Melbourne and should get results at the end of June. They are looking for a condition known as CPVT specifically but I think they said it will look for many types of genes. Odds are small they will find something but if nothing else, it will eliminate things that currently have a question mark over it.
Saturday the 8th April I had a re-birthday party. It was something I saw discussed on my survivor support group page and I liked it. I had lots of people come out with me during a rain break and just have a good time. I stood back and watched and it was grounding...these people 12 months earlier could have been attending my funeral...this thought didn't leave me and is still on my mind. Instead, I laughed, hugged, and enjoyed everyone's company. I wanted to bottle all the good will and take it home :) My son was in fine spirits, having a ball talking to everyone and running. My husband had a good time, telling me it felt like a normal night, something we haven't had in a year...my mum and dad were smiling and enjoying themselves. My recovery is going really well so far, and I look forward to their lives returning to some form of normality for them. I particularly loved my group of school friends coming. I don't see them enough which I will make more of an effort with this year, but to have them there and give them all a hug was so lovely.
I'm glad I went back to work. I understand and agree with taking my time with that. I had significant panic attacks when I went back to school to pack my 2016 room up and needed to work through that before I started back. I have a fabulous team this year. We work together well and get along great, and my grade is fabulous. I have Grade 4 and they are enthusiastic, motivated and get along well.
I have undertaken genetic testing at Royal Melbourne and should get results at the end of June. They are looking for a condition known as CPVT specifically but I think they said it will look for many types of genes. Odds are small they will find something but if nothing else, it will eliminate things that currently have a question mark over it.
Saturday the 8th April I had a re-birthday party. It was something I saw discussed on my survivor support group page and I liked it. I had lots of people come out with me during a rain break and just have a good time. I stood back and watched and it was grounding...these people 12 months earlier could have been attending my funeral...this thought didn't leave me and is still on my mind. Instead, I laughed, hugged, and enjoyed everyone's company. I wanted to bottle all the good will and take it home :) My son was in fine spirits, having a ball talking to everyone and running. My husband had a good time, telling me it felt like a normal night, something we haven't had in a year...my mum and dad were smiling and enjoying themselves. My recovery is going really well so far, and I look forward to their lives returning to some form of normality for them. I particularly loved my group of school friends coming. I don't see them enough which I will make more of an effort with this year, but to have them there and give them all a hug was so lovely.